i am going to start work in less than a week. i am feeling utterly sian already. i am planning holiday trips already. i am dying to get away already. i need to grow up already.
and xan is having field camp. how bad is that? i won't be able to see him for 2 whole weeks. i'll have to be in malaysia by sunday and he books out on saturday night. i need to talk to him. i want to tell him we're going to taipei next year, all i need is an okay from him to buy the tickets but he's in the bloody goat field.
school is resuming in 2 days. i am seriously getting all panicky. everything cramps up and i just want to curl up in a corner and bite my toes. friday is my judgment day. i know i won't do well but i just had to do it. that will decide if i'll go to work on monday happy or i will just all over again run away from reality.
at least there's something going on fine here - my girls. nicely groomed, timely bathed, and mewkie is strongly recommended to get into showring. but i'm not so sure, it's too much for me to handle especially when xan is always not around. i have a full time job to keep.
i have kinda exited my story mode to get into schedule telling. okay, this is bad. and so much so gonna end up abruptly, as always.