deplete, depleting.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

argh you're this jerk i can't erase.

here at 4:34 AM

beautiful article.

crosses finger on you not seeing this. i really need to place this somewhere:
it's not hard to see how immensely he continues to love you, protect you.

sigh whatever.
but two adults in love struggling so hard to hurt each other. dumb.
i don't know la, if missing each other in such misery is feeling more shiok, you both also quite sick la.
that's only what i saw though, you know like how you can see the details of his thoughts just by paying extra attention to his eyes.
and how he don't wish to let others know he is going through the pain so he avoid even hearing the name.
the both of you are gonna make me cry so hard.
but really, whatever la. i do love the yous.

so distracting. am supposed to write about something else.

here at 4:16 AM

Saturday, March 13, 2010

these relationship(s) thingy are gonna rob me of all of my friends some day.

stop getting married seriously.

though i'm really happy that you are.
though i still think you are in your usual semi mode.
though i thought for once you have made up your mind about something.

nornor we haven't go - we've been talking about it for years!

so undecided. LL.B or BSc?

here at 5:49 AM

Monday, March 8, 2010

i didn't let you go

you are buried somewhere in me.
no doubt insignificantly but it pinches me the hardest when it does.
if you are still as worried as you always have been, he has been taking great care of me.
though clearly no one can surpass what you have done.
you won't have to question him, we know you have been watching.
i'm sure he misses you just as much. he still squabble just as much. he irritates us just as much.
yes haha he still can do the duck mouth all the same.
and we've come a long way, thank you for your utmost blessing.
thank you for clearing the paths for me. it haven't been smooth sailing all these years but things do iron out eventually.
i'm very sorry i didn't visit, at all. i have no excuse and i just didn't.
i tried to keep up with your family but i decided we all needed to be not reminded of it this year.
please, be happy. somehow.

here at 11:00 PM

Monday, March 1, 2010

sigh...

you tore my day baby.

what do u mean by all these, really.

you have no least intention to be fair to me.

it's a little late but does not mean it holds no effect.

xoxofo.

here at 3:13 PM

one blog post per month

this one's for the short february. meant to do it yesterday but i slept for a full 25 hours and missed the hour! am on MC today - feeling all feebly after the hibernation, don't think i can make it through the day. but i can still blog!

bao - i didn't see your blog post on the 5 topics - why??? ):

things are picking up it seems. or at least i'm beginning to let go on those imperfections. and some external factors are building so much disgust on me that makes me want to direct all adoration to bf.

have been gambling part-time for the CNY period. though it's ended yesterday, don't think this addiction is gonna stop. i play friendly, not for the money. have only znged a proper 5 hand blackjack on Saturday when colleagues came over. bf helped me with the dealing and gave me a good AA :D, the other hands gave me like JQ, 56+J, KK, and a Q5+6. zlol. won $46 in mahjong afterwhich. was about to end the day , head in to Msia and kevin called and requested mahjong. they were lacking one so well. won $6 after a lengthy 4hour struggle lol.

enjoy the pictures!