it's not that i cannot connect to my friends like how everyone else could. i just do it differently. but by being so, you can't just conclude that i don't love them.
i can be all frilly willy damselly but we didn't start out that way so why adjust it?
i don't mind and in fact would love to throw an asphyxiating hug over bubu whenever i see her but we didn't start out that way so wouldn't it be awkward we just take an acute turn for change? we became friends on a bus, laughing at a dumb man that we don't even realize each other was paying attention to. and no, i didn't hug her after that.
i would love to stop organizing maurice's life for him and running it like a mother. hell no, i won't let his immortal procrastination get ahead of things. in a way i had assumed the responsibility to see him moving on, and progressing in it. not his studies which are like perfect in its field but all else are in dire calamity. i haven't been doing better yet i must see him get on. other than that, i thought i could be this attentive confidante he stumbled upon but it's hardly going that way with so much more straightening out to do.
i love my friends the harder way.