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and get bored when i blog.
he is undergoing ns,
what do you expect?
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Friday, April 24, 2009


gakazu

it all feels like something to test my limits. how far exactly will i go for you? if you are impatient, wondering why on earth am i not speaking, maybe not a good manner to reach out by putting yourself upfront, then scamper back in denial almost instantly. these are not assumptions again, these are what i feel. if you now decide you care not at this point, option is yours to continue.

i don't get it. no i am not angry. i wanna help this confused fellow. but i don't get it. if it's not this and it's not that and you can't express what it is, how and why did this conversation even begin? what exactly is it, it's mind boggling.

we were discussing the 'can or cannot', and irregardless of the outcome, you requested to remain status quo, then there is no point bringing this up babe because we are happy the way we are now, bringing it up complicates things. i appreciate your thoughts and if that was all that's needed then let's endofstory now. or is it just something that you were already dubious of and just needed a confirmation? in that case it was never considered if it would bother me. and back to para one, don't put your views across in order to retrieve information.

the last 2 from you hit the spot - it is not like this, but it is not like that too. maybe you need to review those 2 texts, you were see that what you were trying to mean there is equivalent to what i mentioned before them. it's a puzzle-fitting situation and sorry hun, in this cruel world there is no such selfish acceptance.

don't talk, don't even attempt to talk, when you are confused. now things have just complicated a level further.

i refuse to budge or do a shit about that and there is nothing much we can do. so i will make sure i can. trust me when i say i never had the least intention to allow this friendship to stray out of being platonic. i did everything i can but you are my friend and i have conscience and limited excuses.

i ought to be flattered, and thank you, but you and i are only human. sorry.


here at 1:30 AM